Yesterday I was tired, running late again, didn't have any coffee with me and I made the quick decision to run to the gas station by work for an energy drink or five. Just kidding...two monsters and a Starbucks (thanks spellcheck- they caught that the s wasn't capitalized) mocha thing. You know the one that comes in the glass jar that you drink down in a couple of gulps and then only feel disappointment and overwhelming shame (jk!) for drinking it so quickly? Yep-that's the one. Of course I rush into the store grab the drinks like I'm on an episode of amazing race and about to not make my time limit and of course the guy in front of me needs to buy his lotto tickets. UGH! When the cashier gets to me she says the customary "How are you?" Usually I respond with "doing well and yourself?" Instead, I just said, doing ok. Then as I was being handed my receipt I was like "You know how it is like get up, go to work, go home, get up, go to work, come home..and is that all my life is?" She looked at me and was like yup- I know exactly how you feel. So there you go- I tell a gas station attendant how I've really been feeling lately. I think I have the cold weather/winter blues to be honest with you. I've had a lot of things go on in my life and I have always been able to have a very positive/cheerful outlook but lately I have just been feeling kind of blah, and stressed, and overwhelmed.
This just seems to have been a bad week for me even though it is only Wednesday. Lately at work I've been keeping a countdown timer on my internet explorer and every hour that goes by is one less until I can leave and go home. See what I mean? Usually things that don't ever annoy me-have been lately. For instance, my coworker likes to ALWAYS be right. ALWAYS. She also likes to tell other people how to do their job and she is the very first one to point out something you did wrong- even when it is trite, pointless instances. Always. Usually I can just let this slide off me like a greased up pig on a porch on a hot day. Yeah I totally just made that reference up-remember I'm from Chicago! LOL! It's just- the nitpicking is getting at me- kind of when someone pokes you over and over and over again until you just want to snap but keep it together for a pleasant work atmosphere. Remember-only 3 of us work in the office. I just need to almost become an ice queen just do my work and not engage. Don't let it bother me. Sigh. I just keep reminding myself...student loans...I have student loans to pay off. lol. Is it bad that my dream job would be working in a book store? That's all I really want. Sad I know but I'm a simple girl with simple tastes...except when it comes to clothes, purses, jewelry, well you get the picture. I guess I just need to tough it out for now.
All right let's get onto something more cheerful. Getting to leave work. :p
I left work a little early to deposit money in the bank (for work) and to drop off a fedex. Then I went to the store to pick up things for dinner. I got home, dropped the bags on the floor, and poured myself a glass of wine. I prepared dinner and then my husband came home. He finally got his OER back and he got glowing reviews from his LTC and the major, which is really fantastic. I'm seriously so proud of him and he works so hard. While dinner was in the oven I enjoyed a glass of wine. (don't worry it was the same glass that I originally poured-I just never had a chance to drink it while I was getting dinner ready. :p) I spent most of the night plopped on the couch but around 10:00 I forced myself to set a timer for 25 minutes and I cleaned up the kitchen and living room. It wasn't much but it definitely made me feel better when I walked downstairs this morning. Well I'm writing this from work...so I need to get back to work (obviously) but hopefully this day doesn't end with me wanting to scream or have another delicious glass of wine. :)
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